Dream Gathering

Liminal

There is always looking into it - not wanting to plunge in, but to walk in and come back, and the next day walk in a little further.

The solstice is coming. This year isn't going to work for me. Maybe next year.

Maybe next year.
Maybe next year.
Maybe next year.

spring cleaning

I realize that I have been being selfish - that since I left Facebook, and  because no one reads this blog - I have been keeping these thoughts all to myself. Well? Where to begin...

I feel that there is a log jam in here, and I would really like to clean it out. I have been cleaning out my "to-do" list ever since my semester petered out last Wednesday when my last student took his last final. One of the things on my list is to take this list out of my head and put it on these little, 3x5 cards that I used to carry around.

I have done about 50 things in the last several days, which were all taking up space in my head, and now I feel like there's  a little more room to move and... innovate.

My reader may notice that this is entitled "spring cleaning" and we are fast approaching the Solstice (which is mid-summer by my reckoning). Well, I procrastinate. Or as I should say "The moving average of my behavior indicates over-optimistic estimations of times of completion" - so as not to prescribe that this is "how I am (deal with it)".

Nihilism

I am starting this book: The Self-Overcoming of Nihilism by Nishitani Keiji. I picked it up in the Eastern Philosophy section and was surprised to see Neitzche and Dostoevsky and Stirner. Well I liked what I read enough to buy the book. I was validated to see that this was practically required reading for philosophy students in Japan. I do have an eye for quality.

Without having read more than part of the introduction I am remembering how I thought Nihilism was a developmentally appropriate philosophy for adolescents and young men and women. I felt that once a young person destroyed everything they had inherited, they should build up a new world for themselves.

I still see it essentially the same. But I also had this thought that maybe a bit of that destructive energy should be carried forth into adulthood to retard the ossification of blah bla blah

I would also like to retain more f what I read. Maybe give to you a book report as I go? Blogging regularly might help that.

Crazy me make less too. Are good.

test post

this is a test to see if google has suspended my blogging priveleges.

After the Fall

Copy and paste of my elsewhere comments:

We are little boats floating toward a waterfall. Should we link up our boats? Should we paddle to the shore? Should we batten down the hatches? Should we relax and go along for the ride?

There is a lot of godpower up for grabs. Does it matter who gets it first? Is 50 years from now inevitable? We must act as if it isn't. We must decide what survives the fall, because something - a lot of things - are going away soon.

I will join you. I have to join someone. I'm scared. I'm hopeful. I am resolute.

Don't worry how this sounds to anyone. It has to be done. Call it a religion. If there were any time in the history of humans that the creation of new religion found itself necessary, this is it.

google plus bleedthrough

Welcome to all my new g+ traffic. There has been a teeny uptick and maybe I will see more if I actually become a relevant thinker. My writing is shot - I have become accustomed to 140 characters which is something I think most relevant thoughts can fit into. But I can ramble in that with poorly constructed sentences and paragraphs.

I will try to straighten it out for you, dear reader.

One month later....

Okay so I'm sitting in Safeway, and I think, I haven't blogged in a long time, so maybe I'll go Blog... And here's what I see: Title: Sitting in Safeway What the hell? One month later and I'm still sitting here. Still no job, still no girlfriend, still on the motorcycle. I don't know what to do. If I'm still here on July 28th I'm going to drive my motorcycle off a cliff. Just kidding, but WTF? Make progress, Rabbit.

sitting in Safeway

I found a place where I could be on the internet 24 hours a day. Now I will never leave!!! Well, I'm getting pretty tired :-(

I guess to keep all my journals up to date I should share that Monika and I are no longer a couple. Yeah, if you are curious as to why you should ask me. I am thrown to the public and it seems that I am explaining things 5 times a day every day. I'm tired and it's almost 3 a.m. and I should go go to sleep. I know, I wrote "go" twice in a row. you can ask about that too, but I don't really feel like going into it.